I have a cold. My nose has stopped running due to an overdose of Advil Cold and Sinus (Plus). Work was bearable, made possible by a lack of busyness, and good company. I usually detest company in the presence of a cold, but today, I actually hoped for it. And it came. *thanks*.
Hmmmm. I need a break. I think what I need is to be in the company of people who love me no matter what. Namely, my family.
I'm tired of relationships that have no hope of ever working out. You'd think I'd be able to tell ahead of time, and decide not to pursue them. Nope. Not me. I just jump right in and tell myself it's OK if my heart says it's OK. I'm an idiot. And to prove that I'm an idiot, I'll probably go out and do it again. Fuck. (excuse le francais)
Someday, I would like to be in the radar of someone who genuinely wants to be with me. When it happens that we each have our own developed personality, and we have our own goals in life, and they just happen to align. And when the timing is actually right, and our families get along, and when everything else that is usually messed up, is good. And of course when we're fantastically in love. That will be a good day.
Ok that turned into a bit of a rant. Sorry (but not really).
posted by matty at 2:35 a.m.
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